Friends
The biggest achievement this term will have to be friendship , I know that my studies is going downhill and has taken a very bad dip but I HVE TO BRUSH IT ALL UP!
As for friendship , god finally have eyes ( taken from a Chinese proverb )
After being a lonely , aimless drifting wood for the first three months in Anderson Junior College , I finally found Home and I actually made quite a lot of true & “ comfortable “ friends , peope whom I can sing a Christmas jiggle at ease in front of them an djust talk painly “ crap “ or tease them about their gal pals
So these people are
Kumar ( smart swiss ass )
Li Kai ( Pe patner , al last found someone to relate to during pe..don’t be fooled by his demure looks , he is quite the Chinese girl magnate an is super lame
Lao Hu ( tiger ) ..well he si a china scholar and have left us for NIE
Christine Kon ….Candid , smart Malaysian chick..very articulate , very understanding , very good!
Wei Yang ( very motherly ..good to talk at times
Felicia – it is kind of weird how we started off earlier , I tried to act pissed in front of u and we were so apologetic.. I knew u had leadership written all oever your face when I first met you and bingo what a student councilor are you now! ..it guess it was the GP and PW grouping that made “ our hears broke into a thousand pieces ( hehe ) …tahks for all the help , understand and humor….no lah , no lah , no lah , pls lah ..it is someone.. her real self is so different and frightening!
Saturday, May 28, 2005
term 2 report : Studies
Term 2 report
It can be either vey good or very bad if you took either of the elements away , but sadly , both are in a two-pronged relationshil, I admit, like every other human being , I am greedy & desire more MORE MORE !!! SO WHAT ARE THE 2 MAIN INGRIDENTS for a successful & sweet easy going life
1) STUDIES
Ok first I must emphasize that JC college life is hectically hellish. I am never ever in my life been so busy , & so much agenda cropped up in my mind like what 1) Physics tutorial 2) Chem corrections 3) meeting with synapse people 4) PW ( full of shit ) ..and the list just automatically goes on and on continuously! It was very freakish ..so ya , I did had a breakdown, minor one . as I was feeling quite exhausted , so I just cried and cried, every questions that I stumble upon , I would curse and swear like there there was no tomorrow, my mind would ache so bad that it was on the verge on burstiong..hot ,acidic tears of frustration will roll down reluctantly down my cheek , it was so , to summarize in 1 word …Frustrating…..I have worked so so hard , to my bones , pouring ,mugging for 24 hrs on one topics test , reading revising,reading,writing ,practicing from dusk to dawn …however , when it comes to the real deal , I just JUST! Get STUMPED and stuck in one question and that’s the end of it , I will just it all up , losing all faith,courage and will..that accounts for my horrendous common test marks ( which is so different from NBS )
For the record
Physics C
Biology C
Chemistry B
Maths O ( Failed v. badly n I studied non- stop)
I guess the key now is to STUDY SMART , ADOPTING NEW STRAGTERIES …no longer will hard work & toiling over the weekends will work anymore, It did work in northbrooks as once you put in hard work , success is guaranteed ( partly because of the test questions are mere copies of the 10 year series ) and nobody studies at all ( seriously )
I know , and I MUST STUDY SMART….what’s the point of mugging endlessly and aimlessly , trying to memorized this particular sequence and steps for a questions type and get literally stunned when the question is ( usually ) twisted in Aj’s challenging case ( the test s there here are inhumane & shocking , I dare not imagine the horror of the mid year marks
My Ultimate aim for this year is
1) to be promoted to year 2 , that will mean a pass in 2 A level subjects ( it is actually easier said then done – if people from Cedar Girls’ School , St Nicholas and CHIJ Toa Phyoh can be retained , I shudder to think of the sole one from Northbrooks yes..north- BROOKS!..i am really keeping my fingers crooed..i think I will die if I retain, I duno , it is really scary , I am so scared , I think I will totattly blackout ,stunned, and become mentally unstable as it shows that I am a total failure. The retainees have close relationships and there are usually bravo at their CCAs and leadership and friendship foundation. I am no links out of 1405 , except say for band, synapse and science workshop…u know those tiny whiny stuff…I am REALLY GONNA PULL AT MY SOCKS AND AIM TO GET A B FOR ALL MY SCIENCES AND A PASS FOR GP AMD clAO
2) pass GP ( I TOTALLY REGRETTED concentrating solely on narrative essays , & now I have to “ gesticulate “ over argumentative stuff..i hate arguments , why can’t there be world peace ? ( Bitchy Tone ). This also translates to newspaper reading..better start
3) Pass my CLAO ( not pls do not let me remake CLB)
4) President for synapse ..erm that will a phenomenal turning chapter of my mundane life if it really happens . I cannot help but notice the signals such as teachers always hinting at him to take the lead , to do this , run for them to do task and stuff , leading the lectures ( BTW the cca leaders thingy , totally sucked , I was too nervous and referred to my notes a tad too mucgh..hated it ! ) I cannot help but notice the obvious signal. anyway I am not hoping too much , I never had leadership running through my veins after all, I would like to be in the EXCO team though hahaha ..And I have been selected to attend survivor training boot camp, the Glamorous AB Camp ( see it . ) it states that usually future cca leaders will attend it crème of the crop camp..goodness gracious me ( I will blog it down when I return after 1 week of hell with sonia and ( so idiotic , dun know why , Andrew )
5) I hate people who things that mugging is uncool and they try so so so hard to be cool when they are even not an everybody hates it. its him. I really detest him so irritating and he still has the mugger look even if he tries to pon lectures in order to draw attention and admiration..so childsish… ok why am I even talking about him , oh only a random though. I am also quite pissed off when people come to me & said
Just before the test
Mama “ oh ! boy I did not study the whole weekend lor ( tries to be cool ) , u know what is my routine or not ?.. I sleep , eat , play computer , eat sleep , watch TV ( in smirks tone as if it is cool to tell people about your oh so shit routine”
Me “ oh Whatever , but you will surely have the swiss quality to pull through in the end …oh shit “
When results are out
Mama : ( 90/100 ) and me ? (50/100)
Mama “ woa I very xuai rite?...it was luck, really I did not study lor and proceeds to his damned routine…..oh crap!
It can be either vey good or very bad if you took either of the elements away , but sadly , both are in a two-pronged relationshil, I admit, like every other human being , I am greedy & desire more MORE MORE !!! SO WHAT ARE THE 2 MAIN INGRIDENTS for a successful & sweet easy going life
1) STUDIES
Ok first I must emphasize that JC college life is hectically hellish. I am never ever in my life been so busy , & so much agenda cropped up in my mind like what 1) Physics tutorial 2) Chem corrections 3) meeting with synapse people 4) PW ( full of shit ) ..and the list just automatically goes on and on continuously! It was very freakish ..so ya , I did had a breakdown, minor one . as I was feeling quite exhausted , so I just cried and cried, every questions that I stumble upon , I would curse and swear like there there was no tomorrow, my mind would ache so bad that it was on the verge on burstiong..hot ,acidic tears of frustration will roll down reluctantly down my cheek , it was so , to summarize in 1 word …Frustrating…..I have worked so so hard , to my bones , pouring ,mugging for 24 hrs on one topics test , reading revising,reading,writing ,practicing from dusk to dawn …however , when it comes to the real deal , I just JUST! Get STUMPED and stuck in one question and that’s the end of it , I will just it all up , losing all faith,courage and will..that accounts for my horrendous common test marks ( which is so different from NBS )
For the record
Physics C
Biology C
Chemistry B
Maths O ( Failed v. badly n I studied non- stop)
I guess the key now is to STUDY SMART , ADOPTING NEW STRAGTERIES …no longer will hard work & toiling over the weekends will work anymore, It did work in northbrooks as once you put in hard work , success is guaranteed ( partly because of the test questions are mere copies of the 10 year series ) and nobody studies at all ( seriously )
I know , and I MUST STUDY SMART….what’s the point of mugging endlessly and aimlessly , trying to memorized this particular sequence and steps for a questions type and get literally stunned when the question is ( usually ) twisted in Aj’s challenging case ( the test s there here are inhumane & shocking , I dare not imagine the horror of the mid year marks
My Ultimate aim for this year is
1) to be promoted to year 2 , that will mean a pass in 2 A level subjects ( it is actually easier said then done – if people from Cedar Girls’ School , St Nicholas and CHIJ Toa Phyoh can be retained , I shudder to think of the sole one from Northbrooks yes..north- BROOKS!..i am really keeping my fingers crooed..i think I will die if I retain, I duno , it is really scary , I am so scared , I think I will totattly blackout ,stunned, and become mentally unstable as it shows that I am a total failure. The retainees have close relationships and there are usually bravo at their CCAs and leadership and friendship foundation. I am no links out of 1405 , except say for band, synapse and science workshop…u know those tiny whiny stuff…I am REALLY GONNA PULL AT MY SOCKS AND AIM TO GET A B FOR ALL MY SCIENCES AND A PASS FOR GP AMD clAO
2) pass GP ( I TOTALLY REGRETTED concentrating solely on narrative essays , & now I have to “ gesticulate “ over argumentative stuff..i hate arguments , why can’t there be world peace ? ( Bitchy Tone ). This also translates to newspaper reading..better start
3) Pass my CLAO ( not pls do not let me remake CLB)
4) President for synapse ..erm that will a phenomenal turning chapter of my mundane life if it really happens . I cannot help but notice the signals such as teachers always hinting at him to take the lead , to do this , run for them to do task and stuff , leading the lectures ( BTW the cca leaders thingy , totally sucked , I was too nervous and referred to my notes a tad too mucgh..hated it ! ) I cannot help but notice the obvious signal. anyway I am not hoping too much , I never had leadership running through my veins after all, I would like to be in the EXCO team though hahaha ..And I have been selected to attend survivor training boot camp, the Glamorous AB Camp ( see it . ) it states that usually future cca leaders will attend it crème of the crop camp..goodness gracious me ( I will blog it down when I return after 1 week of hell with sonia and ( so idiotic , dun know why , Andrew )
5) I hate people who things that mugging is uncool and they try so so so hard to be cool when they are even not an everybody hates it. its him. I really detest him so irritating and he still has the mugger look even if he tries to pon lectures in order to draw attention and admiration..so childsish… ok why am I even talking about him , oh only a random though. I am also quite pissed off when people come to me & said
Just before the test
Mama “ oh ! boy I did not study the whole weekend lor ( tries to be cool ) , u know what is my routine or not ?.. I sleep , eat , play computer , eat sleep , watch TV ( in smirks tone as if it is cool to tell people about your oh so shit routine”
Me “ oh Whatever , but you will surely have the swiss quality to pull through in the end …oh shit “
When results are out
Mama : ( 90/100 ) and me ? (50/100)
Mama “ woa I very xuai rite?...it was luck, really I did not study lor and proceeds to his damned routine…..oh crap!
Monday, May 23, 2005
a very good analogue...GoodBye my Friends
I look back now at my final days as a secondary school student last year, and find the memories won't come back as clearly as i would have liked. It's like watching a movie shot in some famous city far away, recognising all the settings but never being able to identify with any of them. As i progressed from secondary school to junior college, i'd turned out the lights in one room and turned on the lights in another, leaving the old diminished and obscured and faded away.
Perhaps the imagery here can be considered blatant and over-used. What else can i do when words fail? What i had not wanted to forget, what i had thought i would never forget, i have forgotten. This must be what Griet from Girl With A Pearl Earring must have felt when she went home to find it familiar but little more.
I'd love to go back one day to my old school, just to walk around again and absorb what used to be my second home. When i think about it, i realise that i have almost no feeling whatsoever for the school building itself, just for the memories that it's premises represent. Greenday sings Boulevard of Broken Dreams. I'd like to write Corridors of Dreams Come and Gone.
It's often said that you only know who your true friends are after you've been apart from them for a very long time, but when you finally meet again, it's like they were never gone. That's how you know that it's not only the memories that hold you together. Memories are so easily lost or replaced. What amusement have i derived from my old friends that i do not derive from my new ones?
My friends still roam the corridors in my head like ghosts, faded with time but undeniably existant. Sometimes when i let myself be still, i can still picture them laughing and walking down those grey paths, bathed in sunlight streaming in from the courtyard. The funny thing is most of these memories aren't real. I made them up because the real ones have gone where all memories go eventually. They still make me feel happy, though, in a peculiar sort of way.
The corridor outside the hall, because that's where i was alone even though they were all around me. The corridor outside the labs, because that is where i smiled. The corridor leading up to class, because that is where i was proud to be a friend. There are others too, like the elevator landing on the second last floor of the cineplex we used to frequent, where my history became briefly yours, and yours mine. All these places are special only because of all the 'you's and 'me's and 'they's, and perhaps only because of them.
The nostalgia apparently isn't gone.
Perhaps the imagery here can be considered blatant and over-used. What else can i do when words fail? What i had not wanted to forget, what i had thought i would never forget, i have forgotten. This must be what Griet from Girl With A Pearl Earring must have felt when she went home to find it familiar but little more.
I'd love to go back one day to my old school, just to walk around again and absorb what used to be my second home. When i think about it, i realise that i have almost no feeling whatsoever for the school building itself, just for the memories that it's premises represent. Greenday sings Boulevard of Broken Dreams. I'd like to write Corridors of Dreams Come and Gone.
It's often said that you only know who your true friends are after you've been apart from them for a very long time, but when you finally meet again, it's like they were never gone. That's how you know that it's not only the memories that hold you together. Memories are so easily lost or replaced. What amusement have i derived from my old friends that i do not derive from my new ones?
My friends still roam the corridors in my head like ghosts, faded with time but undeniably existant. Sometimes when i let myself be still, i can still picture them laughing and walking down those grey paths, bathed in sunlight streaming in from the courtyard. The funny thing is most of these memories aren't real. I made them up because the real ones have gone where all memories go eventually. They still make me feel happy, though, in a peculiar sort of way.
The corridor outside the hall, because that's where i was alone even though they were all around me. The corridor outside the labs, because that is where i smiled. The corridor leading up to class, because that is where i was proud to be a friend. There are others too, like the elevator landing on the second last floor of the cineplex we used to frequent, where my history became briefly yours, and yours mine. All these places are special only because of all the 'you's and 'me's and 'they's, and perhaps only because of them.
The nostalgia apparently isn't gone.
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
Vienna by Billy Joel 送 of the month
Slow down you crazy child
You're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you're so smart tell me why
You are still so afraid?
Where's the fire, what's the hurry about?
You better cool it off before you burn it out
You got so much to do and only
So many hours in a day
But you know that when the truth is told
That you can get what you want
Or you can just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get halfway through
When will you realize...Vienna waits for you
Slow down you're doing fine
You can't be everything you want to be
Before your time
Although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight
Too bad but it's the life you lead
You're so ahead of yourself
That you forgot what you need
Though you can see when you're wrong
You know you can't always see when you're right
You got your passion you got your pride
But don't you know that only fools are satisfied?
Dream on but don't imagine they'll all come true
When will you realize
Vienna waits for you
Slow down you crazy child
Take the phone off the hook and disappear for a while
It's alright you can afford to lose a day or two
When will you realize...
Vienna waits for you.
But you know that when the truth is told
That you can get what you want
Or you can just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get halfway through
Why don't you realize...Vienna waits for you
When will you realize...Vienna waits for you
You're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you're so smart tell me why
You are still so afraid?
Where's the fire, what's the hurry about?
You better cool it off before you burn it out
You got so much to do and only
So many hours in a day
But you know that when the truth is told
That you can get what you want
Or you can just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get halfway through
When will you realize...Vienna waits for you
Slow down you're doing fine
You can't be everything you want to be
Before your time
Although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight
Too bad but it's the life you lead
You're so ahead of yourself
That you forgot what you need
Though you can see when you're wrong
You know you can't always see when you're right
You got your passion you got your pride
But don't you know that only fools are satisfied?
Dream on but don't imagine they'll all come true
When will you realize
Vienna waits for you
Slow down you crazy child
Take the phone off the hook and disappear for a while
It's alright you can afford to lose a day or two
When will you realize...
Vienna waits for you.
But you know that when the truth is told
That you can get what you want
Or you can just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get halfway through
Why don't you realize...Vienna waits for you
When will you realize...Vienna waits for you
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
its may liaoz...must be optimistic in life lor.z.....
may may may
studies really dropping
so much pw wpw pw pw ..project project , luckily i have faith in some ine which will help pull everything togetehr i guess n hopei wanna cons. on my work 200 percen liaoz
must
been lack slackin n unable to cons on work wholely recently
feel distracytted & like its ok to slack
but NO
NEVER
i will mug hard
my aim is to get over the physics hurdle
n pass my 4 subz
ok..
as for social
bin stickin close to my study clique
luv em
n feel quite comforfy if em ..ya its fine lar
i am onli hope so much
as for cca
thank god for august!!
ya i found someone 2 relate to ..i thinl
luv ma cca !!!!!
may dayz
mi off nw...
love ya guyz...
mad blur boiz
studies really dropping
so much pw wpw pw pw ..project project , luckily i have faith in some ine which will help pull everything togetehr i guess n hopei wanna cons. on my work 200 percen liaoz
must
been lack slackin n unable to cons on work wholely recently
feel distracytted & like its ok to slack
but NO
NEVER
i will mug hard
my aim is to get over the physics hurdle
n pass my 4 subz
ok..
as for social
bin stickin close to my study clique
luv em
n feel quite comforfy if em ..ya its fine lar
i am onli hope so much
as for cca
thank god for august!!
ya i found someone 2 relate to ..i thinl
luv ma cca !!!!!
may dayz
mi off nw...
love ya guyz...
mad blur boiz
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